The power of knowing that someone
Anyone
Anybody
Somebody
Out there cares
Is more powerful than any other force on this Earth,
Because it leaves you to realize that if you died tomorrow,
There would always be somebody
Anybody
Someone
That would forever realize you're gone.
And that's a legacy, even if a small one, if I've ever heard one.
A Curly Girl's Trials & Tribulations...Why My Journey Started
There has been many important things that I have learned about my hair since starting the voyage to what I believe is truly normal and natural hair, and the most important is that no one can tell you what you need to do.
Apparently I have hair that is a result of a culmination of ethnicities ranging on the scale of the deepest richest charcoal black to the most fair porcelain white. At some points I have resented this because I never felt like I had hair like all the other Black girls.
Like I can't sweep it in a cute ponytail and have my edges stay flat, or get my kitchen to lay flat with some gel for my updos.
What I do realize is that even though I've wanted all these things for so long, there was no reason I should have them. It was never natural for my hair to do that. And who wants to start a fight with mother nature?
Well after years of perms just to go natural and have noone to show me how to take care of it, to go back to perms, and then realize that I wanna be free, I finally woke up and realized that I just want my hair to be the way nature intended it, wild and crazy and free.
Now don't get me wrong, I've looked at pictures and thought about doing something else. Being who I was before I started this process. I mean I tried it, and its not for me really, anymore.
I've realized through all this that I've been happier with my hair then I've ever been.
Like my hair has caused my moods to shift and change and I'm just over it. I can finally be myself, and I'm in love.
Apparently I have hair that is a result of a culmination of ethnicities ranging on the scale of the deepest richest charcoal black to the most fair porcelain white. At some points I have resented this because I never felt like I had hair like all the other Black girls.
Like I can't sweep it in a cute ponytail and have my edges stay flat, or get my kitchen to lay flat with some gel for my updos.
What I do realize is that even though I've wanted all these things for so long, there was no reason I should have them. It was never natural for my hair to do that. And who wants to start a fight with mother nature?
Well after years of perms just to go natural and have noone to show me how to take care of it, to go back to perms, and then realize that I wanna be free, I finally woke up and realized that I just want my hair to be the way nature intended it, wild and crazy and free.
Now don't get me wrong, I've looked at pictures and thought about doing something else. Being who I was before I started this process. I mean I tried it, and its not for me really, anymore.
I've realized through all this that I've been happier with my hair then I've ever been.
Like my hair has caused my moods to shift and change and I'm just over it. I can finally be myself, and I'm in love.
It coils...
I'm black and I have hair that grows out my head.
It's naughty and naturale: most people are afraid to tame it.
It's nappy, curly, coily, wavy, whatever...
Talk ---- if you want.
Nappy is a word created to make people no longer liable.
I know at some point I could succumb,
But at this moment, I have arrived.
It's naughty and naturale: most people are afraid to tame it.
It's nappy, curly, coily, wavy, whatever...
Talk ---- if you want.
Nappy is a word created to make people no longer liable.
I know at some point I could succumb,
But at this moment, I have arrived.
Dissappointment
If I dropped to my knees and begged
And cried
Felt like I died
Still despised
Demise
Lies
Deceitful
Cheater
Destroyed everything
I am horrible
You spit
You yell
You tease
Mislead
Distract
React
Terrible
To the thoughts of it
You dream about it
Relive it
Rethink it
Disbelieve it
Demolish it
"You stupid..."
I can't breath
I can't stop crying
How could I?
I wanna die
I wanna live
Just for the chance
To fix everything
Erase everything
Change everything
Overshadow it
Make it feel different
Convince you
Make you
Want me
But after all of this
I lost that,
I was still living for myself.
And cried
Felt like I died
Still despised
Demise
Lies
Deceitful
Cheater
Destroyed everything
I am horrible
You spit
You yell
You tease
Mislead
Distract
React
Terrible
To the thoughts of it
You dream about it
Relive it
Rethink it
Disbelieve it
Demolish it
"You stupid..."
I can't breath
I can't stop crying
How could I?
I wanna die
I wanna live
Just for the chance
To fix everything
Erase everything
Change everything
Overshadow it
Make it feel different
Convince you
Make you
Want me
But after all of this
I lost that,
I was still living for myself.
Intelligence
Intelligence is a gift,
Not an asset
I don't need to sport it
If you have your reservations about me
Then keep on passing me by
I won't miss, you...
You can be sure of that.
Not an asset
I don't need to sport it
If you have your reservations about me
Then keep on passing me by
I won't miss, you...
You can be sure of that.
I Am
Let me introduce myself.
I'm not sure you know me.
Last time I checked I was a wolf in sheep's clothing.
A facade created to get you to trust me, love me, and hate me later.
Cuz now you can barely stand it.
I know you couldn't tell but, that's me standing with the cape in the night.
With the clouds dancing over my shoulders.
I'm a villain and you shouldn't cross me.
I'll be straight forward.
There's little love left here if you're not giving any.
There's little left here if you're not giving any.
So what do you have to lose?
Because there's nothing you can give and expect to get back.
But it's me, you won't want it.
I am the lonely girl that cries into the night.
I am the woman who pushed past her problems,
And made something more beautiful than you could ever believe.
You don't know me because I never let you.
I let no(one).
You're close, but not close enough yet.
I'm not sure you know me.
Last time I checked I was a wolf in sheep's clothing.
A facade created to get you to trust me, love me, and hate me later.
Cuz now you can barely stand it.
I know you couldn't tell but, that's me standing with the cape in the night.
With the clouds dancing over my shoulders.
I'm a villain and you shouldn't cross me.
I'll be straight forward.
There's little love left here if you're not giving any.
There's little left here if you're not giving any.
So what do you have to lose?
Because there's nothing you can give and expect to get back.
But it's me, you won't want it.
I am the lonely girl that cries into the night.
I am the woman who pushed past her problems,
And made something more beautiful than you could ever believe.
You don't know me because I never let you.
I let no(one).
You're close, but not close enough yet.
Case of the Ex
Lurking in the shadows
What kind of apparition is this?
Keep covering me in sheets
Lying on my back
Writhing like a fetus
Feeling crazy
For you, baby
I'm crazy as hell
Thinking about you
Never thinking about you
Losing you
Losing me
Instantly
Divided by
Two and two, too
One
Because I know I never
Needed you anyway
What kind of apparition is this?
Keep covering me in sheets
Lying on my back
Writhing like a fetus
Feeling crazy
For you, baby
I'm crazy as hell
Thinking about you
Never thinking about you
Losing you
Losing me
Instantly
Divided by
Two and two, too
One
Because I know I never
Needed you anyway
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